One thing

One thing that u have to know about us.

That i never leave you. U should know that.

When im sure to visit you and then immediately u change. U bcm strange.

You will never know how hard my days since u change. Im so crazy and maybe u think im bad and crazy to you. But never try to know why im like that. I feel u have to be respond but u dont.

You leave me whenever you want and whenever u like u will go without thinking about me.

Only God know i never fake to you. Never try to lie after im lie before. I really love you and show to you and give to you whatever i can. What i cant give even you want not mean i dont love you and never care. So much things i want to do with you and give to you. Whereever we go its meam paradise for me. Even hot and even hard we do i love it all baby.

Cant you see what i did for you? Even nothing for you, but i do bcz i love you. I really love you that time. I dont want change.

I never want u go

I dont want u dont do nomore whatever we did that already bcm habit. Such as we talk, giving so much time each other, u care about me and i care about you. I need you so much, U tell me everything and me either. No secret (Even i know u have much too) and i get jealous too much.

Thats …

One thing that i want you to know. I never leave you but you.

I dont think bad to you.

I dont lie

I don’t hate

I dont stingy baby

I just want you not your money

I love whatever u are

Even sometimes we cant agreed everything. But i love you

I accept you

If for you love is money and about stuffs i cant speak

Bcz i dont have capability about that. Im sorry my love.

I know your life so hard and i cant help. hats why you leave me. I can understand.

But, One thing ….i never leave and u did for first. Now im little bit strong and u too.

So all memory i hope not written about hate and mad.

All happened bcz of the reason ..that u say…its true.

But the reason why u leave me that my heart never know and never can accept. Bcz my heart really love you with full of my heart baby.

I can accept if u go but never accept why. Bcz i love you.

Love for me not same what love for you. Love never gone …if its really love. If your love to me can be gone too mean you never love me. Thats true.

I do love you so impossible i leave.

So dont think im the one bad

If u hate me and mad me and think im bad .. so meant u never know my heart and my feeling to you. Keep moving on and me too. I never not respect to you. All about you i love and respext. Always

I keep this since long in my heart and now i write here for you to let you know. How i feel.

Be happy baby …you are my great love and always be. I never betray you till now.

Yenflower

April 2020

I miss you..

I miss you

I really miss you

I always miss you

And i still missing you

Even i know, you”ll never miss me

But its fine for me

All my way not have to same with your way

My life is mine

And your life is yours

Will never be same

Yennflower

7 March 2020

If you want to go …

If u want to go

Don’t let your mind

Hold you in bad worry

Worry without love in your life

Love will always in you

As long as you have love for others

Even saying goodbye

From your the love one before

If u want to go

Let your step to move

For the next many steps

That you don’t know yet

Happiness not stay in jail of ur small mind

Go….and find it on the next ur step

If you want to go

Don’t look back anymore

There have many hearts

Will ready to make you happy

Let the past Will be the past …

Yennflower.

Suara burung

Burung mesin itu melandai

Kucoba mencerna nama dan warna

Saat ku duduk disini

Kulihat juga burung burung kecil diantara ilalang

Musik melayu itu mengalun

Dan jatuh setetes air

Saat kuseruput kopi yang tanpa gula seperti yang selalu kau suguhkan

“Itu bukan pesawatmu…”

Aku bergumam…

Dan lirik itu menyampaikan isi hatiku

Rasa rindu yang tertahan

Aku tahu kau tak kan datang hari ini

Sementara langit semakin terang

Waktu akan terganti

Jika aku tak duduk disini

Dan melihat pesawatmu melandai

Tentu kau telah datang

Dan aku bersiap memelukmu

Yennflower. 200918.

Long distance

Suara merdu itu

Memanggilku diruang tunggu

Meraihku timbul tenggelam

Mengarahkan kepintu itu

Yang akan melumat tubuhku

Menarik serta mencabik hatiku

Antara pintu itu

Dan keinginan bersamamu

Kau, aku dan realita

Adalah jarak, waktu dan cinta

Disisi manapun kuberdiri

Tak ada kekuatan untukku tegak

Walau ku tetap disini

Dan andai kumeninggalkanmu

Kesetiaan seumpama mega

Yang buyar saat

Pandanganku memastikan

Dimanakah cinta itu?

Ketika kumendekat,

Kulihat kau menjauh

Lihatlah diriku …pilu

Berkata kata dalam diam

Ungkapkan pahitnya hidupku yang kau tanyakan

Aku menjadi angin yang membelai musim keringmu

Tuk inginkan kau

Memelukku dengan dahan dan rantingmu

Pintu itu menelanku

Seperti mesin waktu

Memutar harapan, jarak dan waktu

Tanpa membawa utuh diriku

Aku berjaga dalam kenangan

Saat pintu itu terbuka

Kuyakinkan diriku

Meraih cahaya semesta

Sebagai dian dan keteguhanku

Untuk kembali kepadamu

Dan …

Suara itu memanggilku

Persimpangan

Kita disini

Setelah lelah berbicara

Yang ada hanya luka

Yang makin tercabik oleh kata

Kau ingin berlalu

Bagaimana aku tetap disini

Lelah dan sakit aku sudah biasa

Namun kata selamat tinggal

Membungkamku lara

Laluilah jalanmu

terpaksa aku jalani arah ini

Terasa jauh dan dahaga

Pun tak tahu entah kemana

Pelita pun aku tak punya

Selamat jalan…

Semoga jalanmu adalah yang terbaik

Karena tanpa aku

Jangan takut dengan gulita

Meski malam tiba

Esok fajar selalu ada

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